Every night I have to explain
Posted: 22/11/2025
How many people? Too many people. I am exhausted, but there's more to come.
I once wrote an essay on jealousy, very early this year, which I started at 12am and finished at 3am the same morning. You can find this one on my website blog (good luck finding it! It exists though). I feel like acting on jealousy is an objectively wrong choice. There's nothing objectively wrong with wanting what you don't have, but wanting what you can't have -- knowingly destroying someone else's life for some idea that you want out of your feelings with them -- that's psychopathic to me. And I try my best to avoid jealousy and misplaced desires. I'm so flawed, though. I think I'd be such a nightmare to love, I'm too lost in it all.
You know, I ended up liking Wellington so much more than I thought I would. I'll be back sooner rather than later. Probably for another UN Youth event.
Photo taken the day before (19 November 2025) at 8:58pm from Mt Albert, Wellington. I got lost afterwards and only managed to find myself at my hostel an hour later. Nothing like losing yourself in an unfamiliar city, I seem to have a knack for it.
I lose you time and
Time again, and I smile when
You remember me